Early 2015 year-end summary - the confusion of a newly graduated female programmer

Preface

This is a premature year-end summary, because I think there will be no changes in the next two months. I get up slowly every morning and go to the company. In the morning, I usually browse the blog garden, write some code in the afternoon, occasionally work overtime at night, play games when I get home, and study at midnight.

You can treat this as me pretending to be profound, or just listen to my complaints and some thoughts.
Let me introduce my personal learning experience... Actually, I feel that I have worked hard, hehe

During the summer vacation of my sophomore year, my dad asked me to find something to do, so he contacted a friend to let me do an internship. I was in Xiangyang, Hubei, which is Rizhao, Shandong. There were some frictions with my family, so I bought a standing ticket for the next day (of course there was no seat for the next day), and then I got on the train alone with my luggage.

Xiangyang-Zhengzhou, transfer, Zhengzhou-Rizhao, green train, it took about 2 days, I stood for 2 days. Uncle Hu (my father's friend) took me to the factory (Rizhao Steel, very big), it was in the morning and he treated me to breakfast, during which he introduced several languages, anyway I didn't listen, at that time I was standing for 2 days without sleep and felt very uncomfortable, I ate some vegetables and asked to take me to the dormitory, then I vomited in the toilet for a long time, and there were vegetable leaves all over the floor.

Uncle Hu asked me to learn C#, gave me an e-book, and asked me to go to the office with him when he went to work (the factory was very big, and the office was a bit far away), and then go to their project team to look at things by myself. On weekends, I went to his place to make a summary and ask questions about difficult points. He was also an old programmer, and later he switched to management, but his knowledge was still there. I finally understood the first few chapters of the introductory classics and also used vs2005. But later, I gradually knew that he was easy to talk to, so I often sent him text messages to ask for leave. If it rained, the road was difficult to walk, so I didn’t go. If the sun was too strong, I didn’t go. I was a little tired today, so I took a rest and didn’t go. I didn’t want to go today, so I didn’t go. The dormitory there had a fast Internet speed, and the 11 platforms, China Telecom and China Unicom were not stuck. I felt very happy at the time...
Junior year

After the start of the school, I just played like in the previous two years. But there are always some differences. I usually sleep in the morning and play Dota in the afternoon. But many times, after playing a game, I told my roommate that I would stop playing and study. I often interrupted the game like a neurotic, read e-books, and typed codes. My classmates were beaten badly without me. I have written many small programs and changed the editor to 08 and 10. I found the shortcomings in the actual operation and then supplemented them to further improve my learning.

All my efforts come from imitating the functions of others.

At the end of that year, I wrote the first program I was satisfied with, Snake. I didn't know how to do it at first, so I copied the code on the Internet. Ver.1 I copied it and completed the basic functions; Ver.2 I wrote it many times, using GDI+, so I was familiar with the basic way of making small games, the use of classes, and the concept of object-oriented; Ver.3 Timer, Snake needs time, so I learned the difference between system.timers.timer and timer controls, introduced the concept of threads and in-depth study of threads; Ver.4 GDI+ could no longer satisfy me, so I re-did it with controls, involving the operation of controls between threads, so I learned about delegates; Ver.5 At first, I wrote a delegate for each method, which didn't seem to be cool enough, so I happened to see an article on Blog Garden. Thanks to Zhang Ziyang and the programmer poet, I learned about delegates and events, built-in delegates, and anonymous methods; Ver.6 These were still not cool enough, so I learned lambda and linq, and "The Road to linq" gave me a deeper understanding of the mystery and essence of them.

This Snake is no longer a Snake. I have made dozens of versions. It is a turning point in my life. Just this one thing has taught me a lot. When I got tired of this, I directly made Minesweeper and Tetris. It felt like a smooth process. I remember that in an interview, I wrote "The Implementation of Real-time Dynamic Rendering and Presentation of Artificial Intelligence in Thread Interaction" (Snake) on the project experience, and finally succeeded in angering the interviewer, haha.
Junior to end of senior year

A few things:

1. Learn to simulate http requests. Learn to capture packets, write Baidu Tieba posting machine, sign-in machine, webqq robot. At that time, I worked hard, looking for information day and night, capturing packets, researching, and applying to Tencent to remove the protection. I worked all day and night until 3 or 4 o'clock in the evening. 0.0 Anyway, it took 2 months to make these. I took a lot of detours and learned a lot by chance.

2. WPF. I bought a book to learn WPF because I thought it was cool enough. I also spent a lot of time studying the redrawing of winform. However, although it was good looking, the CPU was not working... My level was limited. I used WPF to make something for my final project. I was at the level where I could use it simply. It was a pity to give up after spending a lot of time.

3. Joined Beijing Red River Valley. I asked for a long vacation from school, and came to Rizhao again in the third year of college. This time I joined Beijing Red River Valley xxxx Co., Ltd., doing outsourcing for Rizhao Steel. I used VB.NET (I also learned it for a while at that time), PL/SQL. My team leader was very enthusiastic. She told me what to write, but never told me why I had to write it like this. She was a very enthusiastic sister, although I didn't learn anything. All my work during this period is as follows: I wrote several form pages in VB.NET, and the team leader helped me with the storage procedures, and made some reports. Working hours: get up at 6:20 in the morning and get off work at 6:00 in the evening, one day off, the company also gave me a mobile phone, so that I could answer the phone conveniently, so a worker called me at 2 o'clock in the morning the next day: "I don't know what I clicked on this thing, and I don't know where the data went", so I quickly got up and turned on the computer, and within two minutes, he called again, "Why haven't you finished it yet?" The factory workers work in three shifts, and we programmers only have one shift, but we feel tired.

4. A little bit of complaints. At that time, I was lucky enough to join the Baidu C# bar management team as a newcomer to learn. I complained to them that I could not learn anything from outsourcing and using VB.NET. In the end, I was scolded for not working hard. The blogger who scolded me was @萌萌哒小萌. In the end, I did not waste time because the team leader was very tolerant and caring. My workload at work was not very heavy, so I used my spare time to consolidate the C# language and deeply learn linq. I dare not say that I am proficient, but the simple and proficient use has benefited me a lot so far. I started to learn mvc3 when I returned to the dormitory, and planned to do web in the future.

5. The last time I went to Rizhao. I used to stand there, so I gritted my teeth and bought a sleeper (Zhengzhou-Tangshan) this time. The train ticket to Zhengzhou was sold out, so I bought a long-distance bus. It snowed heavily that day, and the bus could not get on the highway, so I arrived in Zhengzhou after the train left. I thought it was late anyway, so I saved some money for a taxi and walked to the train station. In the end, I was told that the ticket could not be refunded 2 hours after the train left. As a result, I lost 160 yuan to save 20 yuan. . . All tears. I had a fever during the Chinese New Year, and it was not cured yet. I walked alone in the heavy snow in Zhengzhou in the middle of the night for 5 hours, and finally found a small hotel with vacancies. ------- Thinking about it, my journey to study was quite difficult.
Tangshan, doing e-commerce

I finally quit my job in Rizhao because I was tired. I met a lot of friends and we are still in touch now. There were still 3 months before graduation, and I was still studying day and night. I started to learn web, and at that time I mainly learned how to use MVC3, jQuery, and Bootstrap. I was not satisfied with several interviews in Wuhan (the one that satisfied me felt that my level was not good enough, and the person who interviewed me was in finance, fuck. The one that satisfied me was not satisfied with me, and several companies were doing C/S, but I wanted to do web). Finally, a friend I met in the Tieba group introduced me to an e-commerce company in Tangshan, so I said goodbye to my family and boarded the train to the north.

That netizen was the interviewer. He had often chatted with me before and knew my level, so as expected, I was hired. After I started working, I found that the software used in my work was not mvc3, but mvc preview 3...囧, this version should be known in the garden. After joining the company, I still worked hard. I didn't delay playing games or studying. Sometimes I often went to bed at 3 or 4 o'clock. I had enough time. At this time, I started to improve my front-end skills. During this period, I improved the most in CSS, CSS3 skills, proficiency in the use of jQuery, and the writing of stored procedures of general difficulty. It was an old project with many people involved and chaotic code. I only dared to patch it, but I didn't dare to touch the previous code. Whoever touched it would know.

During this period, I did the maintenance of e-commerce websites and the development of new functions, the WeChat access on mobile phones, the customization of VIP user websites... There were more subtle things, which allowed me to accumulate many solutions to problems. But I was not optimistic about the project at that time, and the north gets cold early, and I am afraid of the cold... In the end, I resigned after working for less than a year. I learned a lot from this job, mainly the improvement of front-end skills and the way to improve the quality of code.
Last year I returned to Wuhan

It was October last year when I returned to Wuhan. I interviewed with several companies and everything went well, but in the end, things broke down when it came to salary. Although I graduated in 2014, I started working in 2012. I worked for 2 years with a high school degree, so I couldn’t get the salary of an ordinary fresh graduate. Finally, I joined my current company. The salary is the same as when I was a senior in Tangshan, but it is probably a good price that Wuhan can offer. How much can a second-tier city offer fresh graduates... I just can’t accept it. I can’t accept that my hard work is overshadowed by my qualifications and that my efforts are not rewarded. What I can’t accept the most is that I can’t show it off to my parents, even though they told me that they are already very satisfied.

I haven't asked my family for money since my junior year. I was already earning the salary of a fresh graduate in a first-tier city in a third-tier city before I graduated (just think of me bragging). I had accumulated almost 2 years of experience when I graduated. I always thought I was so good. When I was in the mood, I often slept only a few hours a day to study. I worked very hard. However, now that I have graduated for almost 2 years, my salary is still the level of a senior year. I gave half of my salary to my family and said that I had too much money to spend. I had to finish the road I chose even with tears in my eyes. After all, I wanted to leave my parents with the feeling of having a child without them having to worry about it.

Speaking of new companies, we still have to talk about technology. Now we are doing outsourcing for Huawei, and poorly written code will be pointed out. There are restrictions on the external network here, so I just registered an account on Blog Park to browse (Blog Park has no restrictions). This year, I have made great strides in the front-end. JS is no longer just for realizing functions, modularization, plug-inization, proficiency in the use of several front-end libraries/frameworks, improved my own plug-in writing skills, familiarity with the underlying methods of jq, learning some jq source code, plagiarizing ideas and trying to implement them myself (this seems to be the original source of most of my knowledge points). It’s boring to talk too much, I feel embarrassed if I say less, and you will say I’m bragging if I say too much. The essence is miscellaneous but not refined.
Thoughts

I originally thought that I was quite comfortable and was pretty good compared to my classmates. The job sounded high-end, the income was said to be very high, and the company building was very impressive. But occasionally, when I talked about my salary with my acquaintances online, it was already N times of mine. I thought I should try my best while I was still young. I heard that the salary had increased again. The internship salary of those fresh graduates was much higher than my current salary. I personally don’t care about money. I think it’s enough. Although my family is not well off, my family has never treated me badly. They gave me whatever I asked for. But how much money I make is related to the fundamental reason why my parents show off among relatives and friends, and it cannot be shaken.

And now, I find that I love money. It's not that I want to buy a lot of things, but that money is a reflection of a person's ability and a representation of a person's value. Especially when some relatives show off to my mother that their children are doing something in the big city, I don't remember what they are doing, but xxx, balabalabala, my mother listens with a smile, and then goes home and scolds me. In the end, we discussed this issue for a long time, but we couldn't reach a consensus on whether to be content with what we have or not to be dissatisfied with the status quo.

I am very good. Compared with my classmates, I am very awesome...but I don’t want to compare myself with them.

I spent 3 hours writing this article. After reading it roughly, I feel that I am just bragging and distorting some facts. The main purpose is not to talk about my own experience or my own thoughts. Instead, I pretend to be frank or implicitly express that I am very capable, I feel that my talents are not appreciated, and I sigh for myself. I want to get some praise and encouragement through this, but I am worried that some people will see my original intention and expose it, so I want to delete this article. After all, I have been typing for so long, so I will beg for it.

I carefully thought about my mentality when writing this article. This article should be about being dissatisfied with the reality and the current situation, but unable to change it, like the wail of a dog with a negative attitude. I just can't accept it.

BJWSRCYX!!!

What wakes me up every day is not the alarm clock, but my dreams.